May 19th 2011 12:30pm: We just found out that mom has breast cancer. She detected a lump on the right side last week, and underwent few tests. On Monday, results reported that it was not cancer. It was a relief for us. But today (Thursday), other tests proved that it is cancer.
She’s not home yet, still at the hospital with my brother and aunt to run some more tests…
At first, my mind went blank. I didn’t want to believe. I was doing laundry and was about to hang the clothes out in the sun, when I overheard my brother on the phone with my other brother asking “What? Cancer??”. I walked straight up to the terrace, did my thing, trying to take my mind away from the bad news. I came down, went to my room, played “I hope you dance” by Lee Ann Womack (which happens to be on my desktop because I downloaded the video just yesterday, and didn’t move it to the song folders yet) and started to cry.
I know I should be optimistic and everything, but these ugly thoughtless thoughts are creeping into my head right now! The thought of not having a mom.. God why is this happening? The thought of not having mom by my side on my wedding day, she wouldn’t be there to hold my children someday; the thought of explaining to my nieces and nephew that grandma would go to heaven soon. I went to the bathroom several times to wash my sloppy face. I went to see what dear old dad was doing; he had fallen asleep. The thought of dad who would sleep alone in their bed one day brought my tears back. I went to the kitchen, looked at the dining table, and again the thought of mom’s seat that would be empty someday made me cry. I opened my blog, read what I wrote for mom’s birthday last year “Mom’s 63rd birthday”, it made me happy to have written that post, because it is going to be a reminder for me every coming year now. I wish she’d live to see her 64th birthday this year, and next year, and the next and the next… Oh God, I’m literally crying and typing right now. Shucks!!
And so, they came home in the evening. She was showing her happy face. She knew I had been crying. I mean come’on! Who would not notice my red nose and sore eyes? My aunt (nutei) prayed. Later, cousin Maremi and Prissy’s family all came together, and we had a family prayer. Cousin read Philippians 4:4-7, which was very comforting. She believes that this cancer is clearly not going to kill her, but rather a wake-up call for all of us, to reach out to God. I believe that too! I’m going to do whatever I can to make mom happy. She’ll be undergoing an operation most probably by next week. So please please please remember my mom in your prayers.
Trust in the Lord for “His ways are different”.
11 comments:
ui, im soo sorry! ava zialo ve. my prayers are with you and your mom. I know how close you are to your mom, so I guess this would come as a huge blow. Is there anything we can do? rawn soi top mai rawh aw. Hugs
So sorry to hear that!
From the little googling that I just did, breast cancer patients seem to have a very good fighting chance.
A va pawi ve. Tawngtai na ah ka lo hre reng ang e. Be brave,God is with us.
its easy to say it'll be all right BUT i say we stay together, pray together, walk together, stick with each other and make sure ur mom gets the best treatment/ love in the world. ANd remind each one of us not to take anything for granted
Oho! poive...kanutei plus ka hmelhriat deuh deuh te pawh hi anlo vei ve tawh a, an dam ve mai a sin. Mahse a tir a an vei tih hriatlai a rilru lo donson kha thil nuamlo pawl tak a ni. Kanlo dilsak ve don nia.
mim, so sorry to hear about your mom.. try ur best to be strong for her
hello everyone.. Thanks for your love and support. Mom had been operated, and we have been discharged from the Hospital. Samples have been sent to Mumbai, and we are waiting for the results. Keeping our fingers crossed! God is with us..
ooh o dear! I'm so sorry to hear that.. Kan chung a thu neitu hnenah dil ang u, he knows what is wrong and what is right for us..
A hmelmawi min hmuhtirtu hla ka rilru ah lo lang tlat...
'Ka Lalpa remruat dan hi, a mak in hriat thiam a har ngei e
Mi te ngaih a beidawn na lo thlen chang hian in e… a hmel mawi min hmuhtir tu..
Ka lo tawngtai pui dawn che nia
pawi ve aww.. Reminds me of my cousin sister who was diagnosed with the same..
If it might help, here’s the link :
http://profile.purposedriven.com/dailyhope/post.html --> Don't Understand? Trust God
@mnowluck: thanks a lot. kha hla ngei kha, tunlai chu ka ngaithla nasa khawp mai.. kan rilru inang!
@m-s-a: thank you!
Its very easy to type i'm sorry out of politeness. But, reality, when it hits us is very different. I can still remember with haze 17 years ago when my father was diagnosed with stomach cancer and he had to be operated. I was still small at that time and really don't know what cancer was all about. Only, i know that its a disease which have a very high mortality rate. Its only today with retrospect that i'm able to realise the full import of that predicament. I even went for check-up with him to Tata Memorial Hospital with him. With God's grace, my dad is still with us today.
God can do so many things. We often don't know what is His path for us. The only thing i realise is that whatever may happen, He is with us always. Pray and believe!
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