claire

a disclosure

1. “Now, which one should I put on? Hmm.. I think I’ll go for purple, coz it will match my purple purse, even though its heels are higher than the rest. I can bear the pain”


“Ughh.. These heels are killing me!! Whoever invented high heels? And whoever brought it into fashion?? I will never wear ‘em again!”


2. “OMG! Who is that guy? He’s so cool. Maybe I should go and ask him his number”


“Me go ask his number? No ways.. I’d rather stay back, who needs it anyway?”


3. “I’ll start from tomorrow, I’ll read this tomorrow, there’s still time…”


“Oh man! Still so much to read and exam’s just around the corner. I will never keep things for the last minute again. This is torture! Arrrghh !!”


4. “That’s it! I’m done! I will never ever ever fall for a guy again!”


“All guys ain’t the same. And there ain’t just one fish in the sea. Why should one wrong guy change my opinion for the others?”


5. “I love this song! I love it! It just reached the 100th repeat and I can’t get enough of it”


“Plzzz… Not that song! I am so fed up. Anything but that song will do”


6. “I’m so lean. I should eat more. This is not good. I look like a stick!”


“Oh no.. Why have I become like this? These pants don’t fit anymore! Diet, girl, diet!”


7 “This is so worth it, next episode please, next, next, next…Thank God I’ve downloaded everything..”


“Yawn…! Zzzzzzz.. Damn! I can’t keep my eyes open. Why did I watch all the episodes last night? I should have saved some and slept earlier.. zzzz”


8. "I look like a granny. I think I can manage without these glasses for today.."


"Oh me eyes! I cannot see as clear as before. I need to put on my glasses regularly from now on..."


9. "This game is so addictive! I should reach the next level soon. I'll wait for a while to regain my energy. Meanwhile, i'll invite more friends to join my mafia"


"I should have done something better instead of just wasting my time"


10. "O.k! It's a little tight, but I think I can manage"


"Oooof! It's so warm and these pants seemed to be sticking to my skin!"


*Sometimes, I am my own enemy, and sometimes I am my own friend* :-)

I know I’ve been a brat

I know I’ve let you down

I know I’m not the perfect girl for you

But I know you love me for me


You love me just as I am

You love me even though I’m not good enough

You love me not because of my looks

You love me even when I’m in my Pj’s


I’m sorry for testing your patience

I’m sorry for hanging up the phone on you

I’m sorry for being too proud at times

I’m sorry for making you cry


You make me feel beautiful everyday

You make me want to become a better person

You make me realise the love of God

You make me what I am today


I wish I could remember the day we first met

I wish I could recall that first day you held me in your arms

I wish I’d not taken you for granted

I wish I could turn back time


Thank you for being there when I needed someone

Thank you for giving me hope when I felt like giving up

Thank you for laughing at my jokes

Thank you for your appreciation


I love you for all these and more

I love you with all my heart

I love you for who you are

I love you Mom, I always have, and I always will

Of course, not that Aerosmith’s song.. But the song did cross my mind when I realised that I WAS and still AM living on the edge, and my life could just end at the blink of an eye.


I had an eventful experience this Wednesday. My work requires collection of samples from different parts of Mizoram. This time, my trip was planned to Champhai. Brother 1, brother 4 and brother 5 were supportive enough to come with me (I have five brothers for those who might be wondering).


Here’s a link of the main places we have to pass through to get to Champhai. (Link)


THE TRIP

We started at 8 am with our faithful Santro car. Before we left, we all gathered in the living room and Mom prayed. She always does. It rained the previous night, and it was drizzling when we left.


Breakfast at Seling. Smoked Pork.. yummmm :-)


Crossed Keifang, and heard that there was a Landslide prone area ahead. We moved on.


Reached Tuivawl at 12 pm, there was a long line of vehicles ahead (Picture 1). Mostly buses and Pickup trucks. Some of them were stranded since 10 am that morning. A landslide had occured the previous day, and a Transport Truck got stuck in the mud. Two JCB's were working to clear the land, and to move the truck out.


At 1:30 pm, part of the land was cleared for vehicles to pass(Picture 2). Truck was still there. Vehicles infront started to move, crossing the landslide area one by one. Just when our turn came, the two JCB's took their many timeth trial to move the Truck out. Finally, it was moved.


Brother 1 drove our way to the danger zone. Guess what? Our Car Got Stuck! Right at the Landslide point! (Picture 3). It wouldn't move front, or back. Brother 4 and 5 got out to push it. I thought I’ll give a hand, but they told me to stay in, so that my feet won't get dirty. I felt loved :-)


But then, people from the other side started shouting that the land was going to slip again, and to move out quick. We all panicked. Somehow we managed to move back, and just then, the land slipped, right in front of us. Seriously scary!!!

Brothers asked me to get out, and to stand as far as possible (Picture 4). Again, I felt loved :-). Two men from behind ran towards us, and gave my brothers a hand, and they pushed the car far back away from the danger zone.


The JCB started to clear the land again (Picture 5), for about an hour until it ran out of diesel!


Bigger vehicles behind us took risk and started to move ahead, and they got stuck one by one. Some lucky ones passed through. That's the first vehicle which got stuck after us (Picture 6).But guys from the other side came to our side, and started to help push. This is exactly what I was talking about. “Helpful Mizo Guys”.


That’s the third or fourth vehicle which got stuck. As these pictures were taken, there were some debris and stones falling every five minutes! But these guys risked their lives to help others, strangers that they don’t even know.


I wanted to go back home, because it was still raining, and the place was still very dangerous. Even if we could go across (with the help of these guys), we were to come back after 2 days, which was still risky. But I did not want to tell my brothers, because this trip was for me. Boy! Was I glad when brother 5 asked me if I wanted to go back home! I quickly nodded.


My (muddy) shoes (Picture 8). Hehe..


I didn’t want the trip to go waste. So after a tea break at Keifang, we asked around and found a place where I could collect few samples.

Yep.. that’s me collecting my samples (Picture 9).


Dinner at Seling. Smoked Pork again.. yummmm.. hehe


Brother 5 drove the car after dinner. At around 8:30 pm, we crossed Tuirial, and guess what? A huge boulder came tumbling down right infront of us! Followed by stones. We panicked a lot! Brother 1 asked brother 5 to back up the car, and for a moment, he forgot how to back it up!


Luckily, a JCB which was on its way home came along. It cleared the road for us again (Picture 10).You know what I was thinking? “God saved us, and has sent us guardian angels in the form of men and JCB! God has answered Mom’s prayers”


Since I brought my camera, I wanted to take every picture to remember this incident. And I so wanted to take the picture of this huge stone. While we drove past it, I tried to take a shot, just as the flash came, all three brothers shouted “Is this the time???” Haha.. I laughed to myself for being so silly.. But later we all laughed talking about me and my camera. Lolzz..


Home sweet home at 9:45 pm


I am glad for this trip

I am glad to realise the love my brothers have for me

I got to see the beautiful night view of Aizawl from Zemabawk (always one of my favourite views)

I got to eat a delicious breakfast and dinner (I’ve always thought that food at Mizo Hotels is tastier then home made ones..hehe)

I am glad to see our mizo guys in action again

I am glad that I could collect my samples

I am glad to be alive

God has saved our lives TWICE!